After a break from kickboxing, I had forgotten how amazing it makes me feel. I feel ten times fitter for a start, but I also feel empowered. I feel amazing because it's something I am doing on my own. I don't need my mum or my best friend to hold my hand. I do this because I love it. I love how tough I feel, I feel in control. And I need to remember that before I make a lame excuse not to go next week.